1 Corinthians 13
New International Version (NIV)
13 If I speak in the tongues[a] of men or of angels, but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. 2 If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. 3 If I give all I possess to the poor and give over my body to hardship that I may boast,[b] but do not have love, I gain nothing.
4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
8 Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 9 For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10 but when completeness comes,what is in part disappears. 11 When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me. 12 For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
13 And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.
Ata, the love of my life, breadth of my existence...
The past 11 months God has been teaching me patience. I knew that God had a purpose in teaching me patience and I knew how versatile its needs would be, but I didn't know what test I would have to endure in order to know that I have in-fact learned patience, until now.
See, the nature of God, and his plan for my life has been strewn out in front of me all this time. He just wants me to learn his ways. My heavenly father illustrated to me, at 6:30 am this morning, that Love is Patient.
The love of my life has been going through life, and its been spinning out of control around him. Last night he said he needs to be alone, he doesn't think that speaking for a while will be in the cards. Although I don't know what that means...whether or not that means we are not to speak (forever) or for a set amount of time..I don't know. He really didn't specify. The thoughts of the meaning behind these words terrified me.
I prayed in order to calm down, because I could feel my insides panicking. The turmoil that struck me was not unlike a raging storm of chaos, but God pulled me together and gave me peace, and rest.
I awoke this morning to another message similar to the ones of last night. This time with peace in my heart God revealed something to me. Love is Patient.
Remember how many of my children have walked away from me and made me wait, see that in my nature, the nature of Love, I am patient. I am here always, no matter how many times you turn away. I am here. Because I love you. I love the world. I saved them, because I love them. Love is patient. No matter where you are my child, I will meet with you in that place. I am with you always.
In that moment, I realized that-that is what I was learning. The nature of Love, and first and foremost Love is patient. I have to be patient, regardless of the ideologies i have for my life God knows what I need. Only with him may I find what I need. God knows me better then I, myself. He knows my path, he illuminates it even when the road becomes unbearable desolate, I know he is with me.
I texted Francisco and told him that no matter what I would be by his side, all that requires of him is to look up at the stars and know that I too am thinking of him. I love him. I Love Francisco Atahualpa Gil. Love never fails...This is real, and I have faith and hope that soon in God's time I will see this hope become truth. Ata my dearest Ata, never forget that I am on your team, and you don't have to do this alone, but if you feel you must...I will be waiting. I will be patient, because that is the nature of my Holy benevolent Father.
I love you. This means I will be patient, I will be kind, I will not envy, I will not boast, and i will not take pride in how much love I or you show. I will respect and not dishonor others, I will be selfless, not easily angered, I will keep no record of wrongs. I will rejoice with the truth and not delight in evil. I will ALWAYS protect you, ALWAYS trust you, and together We will persevere ALWAYS. I say this to you because this is what I mean when I say I love you, and because LOVE NEVER Fails! Never... That is the nature of Love. God is LOVE, and thus is the nature of our God. I LOVE you, and this is the nature of OUR LOVE.
I don't care how long I have to wait because I know that LOVE NEVER FAILS, and ALWAYS perseveres. Always. Te amo.
I know this because I have faith in God, in you, in us, and for the first time I have hope, Hope that our Love will persevere always. Love never fails. I love you. Mio.